The Faith of a Child

Last Sunday, March 1st, we listed our house. While we certainly have faith that God can continue to provide without us having a steady income that we can depend on, we felt that it was only wise to just put it out there and see what happens. This was a very hard decision because if our home sells, it appears that are best case scenario is walking away with our credit in tact, meaning based on the homes around here and their asking price, we will lose everything we put down on our house but avoid being foreclosed.

Last weekend was hard because we are trying to plan for the future without having any idea what the future looks like. We are looking at all our options which unfortunately, could be eventually filing bankruptcy or being foreclosed on so we are trying to see how to avoid that at all cost. I know that is a long way off if that even WOULD happen. Miraculously, we are not even behind on our payments because of God's provisions!!! I am just in awe of that alone. I firmly believe God can continue to use people in the way that He has to provide money in order to pay our bills. However, I don't want to just sit back and not try to sell our house expecting that to happen because we honestly don't know what God wants us to do- whether that be to continue showing us miracles by allowing our bills to be paid as they have so far or giving us a miracle with our house selling because with the way the market is that is a miracle too. On the flip side, I also know that God may also allow us to face what I used to think would be just awful, bankruptcy or foreclosure, but somehow He will hold us up and use it for our good one day and bring about the glory of God. We just don't know which way God will choose to work but even with the sadness we have experienced at times, we ultimately still have this overriding peace. As I listened to everything we needed to consider from various sources as we move forward, I was just overwhelmed. I had also found out one source God had been using to help provide for us was now in a situation where they were unable to help. I just began to feel overwhelmed because we had our house payment coming up the first part of March and we didn't have anything to go toward it but God gave us yet another miracle!!!

I want to tell you that once we booked Vince's trip to Texas last Wednesday, we just prayed that somehow we would still be able to pay our house payment that was due a few days later. In a span of less than a week (last Friday until this past Tuesday) we are $1.05 short of our house payment which can probably be found around our house. :) I was just in shock and awe as I counted up the money that had come in from various sources in that time period and when I saw how it totaled up almost exactly, I just praised God and sat there in amazement!

While we don't want to worry our kids with our situation, we have prayed with them that a job would open for Daddy as he has worked tirelessly to find one and to take the steps God would have him to. We also share with the boys the times God uses someone to provide for our needs because we want the faithfulness of God to be something they never forget, even at their very young ages. We have always told them how grateful they need to be for our home, food, clothes, etc. and we have shared with them how some people don't have any of these things so it is important to thank God everyday for what we have. This lesson has come alive to them when we have people bringing us food or taking us out to dinner. We have explained that we don't have money to have any of these things but God is sending these people to us so they can help.

Well, today as we were leaving the house, I told Grant to not leave any toys out because someone may come look at our house to buy it (we're thinking positive here :) He said, nobody is going to come to our house for a while. We don't need to sell our house because God is giving us money so we can stay in our house. I thought, well, there you have it! While we are trying to plan as wisely as we can with the uncertainty of the situation, God is trying to tell me to just be still and know that He is God! He is providing for us TODAY so why am I worrying about tomorrow with decisions that just don't have to be made TODAY. It is funny that God chose to use my 4 year old to remind me of this simple truth. Isn't it just like a child to keep it simple and remember that God is in control? We are learning as much as we like to have a plan and prepare for the future, God is in control and we are just along for the ride.